Je Peux by Serena Suson

​If I could,
I think I should like to smile
To dance among Draco and Cassiopeia
To feel my tears leave to become stars themselves
Dotting the sky with my memories
With hues of white, yellow, and blue
To have happiness as my eternal companion
Would be a wonder I could never ask for.
       
And yet
I keep wondering how I turned back that day
And anatomized the pain
How I learned not to mourn a bed of dying ashes
For it was something that once lived
I wonder
How I found myself
How I found myself in you
I wonder
Why the jays follow me in song
Why I curtsy to the flowers and dance in the rain
And why I find that pain,
Pain is something I can withstand
 
I wonder at my luck
That because of you
Terra no longer means just earth
Ebony is no longer just a color
That my words hold meaning
My kindling,
My reason for living
Because of you
Because of you
 
Je peux

​Serena Suson

is an aspiring author from Milwaukee, Wisconsin, armed with hope and lofty dreams. She enjoys experimenting with various forms of writing, from playwriting to poetry to simple fiction, and has been published in the 2020 Wisconsin Fellowship of Poets’ Calendar. In between writing sessions, she spends most of her time reading Jane Austen and trying to spread kindness above all else.